With his return to the highlight now imminent, Ed Sheeran is opening up concerning the non-public turmoil that’s mirrored in his newest creative output.
Sheeran, a four-time Grammy winner, graces the April cowl of Rolling Stone and, within the accompanying interview, speaks at size about his new album, “Subtract,” and Disney+ docuseries, “The Sum of It All.”
The chat takes a number of emotional turns, notably when Sheeran addresses his fraught relationship with physique picture and his expertise with despair and substance abuse.
“I’m self-conscious anyway, but you get into an industry where you’re getting compared to every other pop star,” the singer-songwriter defined. “I was in the One Direction wave, and I’m like, ‘Well, why don’t I have a six pack?’ And I was like, ‘Oh, because you love kebabs and drink beer.’ Then you do songs with Justin Bieber and Shawn Mendes. All these people have fantastic figures. And I was always like, ‘Well, why am I so … fat?’”
Sheeran mentioned that his preoccupation with physique dimension and weight intensified to the purpose the place he developed an consuming dysfunction. He discovered himself figuring out with Elton John after studying the Rocket Man’s 2019 memoir, “Me.”
“I found myself doing what Elton talks about in his book – gorging, and then it would come up again,” he defined. “I have a real eating problem. I’m a real binge eater. I’m a binge-everything.”
Elsewhere within the interview, Sheeran acknowledged having suicidal ideas after the dying of his longtime pal and collaborator Jamal Edwards final yr. The DJ and music entrepreneur was the founding father of SmokeyBarz TV (SBTV), a web based platform devoted to showcasing up-and-coming musicians.
In the aftermath of Edwards’ dying, Sheeran informed Rolling Stone he “felt like I didn’t want to live anymore.”
“And I have had that throughout my life,” he mentioned. “You’re under the waves drowning. You’re just sort of in this thing. And you can’t get out of it.”
In current months, Sheeran has embraced remedy and is concentrated on health. He credit his spouse, Cherry Seaborn, and his daughters Lyra, 2, and Jupiter, 9 months, with serving to to stop him from turning to medication and alcohol in his low moments.
He mentioned he additionally discovered solace in returning to the studio to file “Subtract,” noting: “It helps me make sense of my feelings. I wrote without thought of what the songs would be, I just wrote whatever tumbled out. And in just over a week, I replaced a decade’s worth of work with my deepest darkest thoughts.”
Sheeran’s four-episode docuseries “The Sum of It All” hits Disney+ on May 3, with “Subtract” set for launch two days later.
If you’re battling an consuming dysfunction, name the National Eating Disorder Association hotline at 1-800-931-2237.